yo la tengo

You and me we're at the goldfish pond
and I, I was tagging along for the ride
all the big mouthed fish really made us laugh
and while I stood still I felt a chill
I thought that maybe you did too
I wanted to feel that way forever
And that's why
If you're looking at me I'll try to be what you want to see
and if I'm, if I'm, ever that lucky
You won't have to be so, You won't have to be so sad
You won't have to be so sad.
Last night I was trying to read in bed
But I got to watching you sleep instead
Even when I got tired I couldn't stop
Because I love you so, and I pray you know
But I'm not much for praying
I knew I couldn't say that without making a joke
And that's why if you're looking at me I'll try to be what you want to see
and If I'm ever that lucky you won't have to be so
You won't have to be so sad.
You won't have to be so sad.
Yeah that's why
If you're looking at me I'll try to be what you want to see
and I, if I'm ever that lucky you won't have to be so
You won't have to be so sad.
You won't have to be so sad.
You won't have to be so sad.


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Wrote 2 pages about my life, but still nothing for the proposal. Future looks bleak.

slow

I miss this! who wouldn't. slow day.

I just have this thought..that is going somewhat like...TELL ME WHAT TO DO TELL ME WHAT TO DO TELL ME WHAT TO DO. Because I don't know what to do. About anything. It's like this thing...where there's too many open doors, and then you get stuck thinking about all the possibilities but no solutions and I'm afraid of a lot of things, like big dogs and being a senior and the psychology exam in 2 weeks and all my friends being haters. dunno. dunno. dunno. something like when you close your eyes and all you see are newspapers that won't stop printing and spinning your vision.

dream: I look down at my legs, and there are white spots everywhere that are actually mosquito bites that have become really dry. My ankles are super white looking too. I remember thinking..."michelle..you ashy."